I have now arrived at the end of Week Eight of MKMMA. To say that it has been a bumpy week plus is a gross understatement! Monday was a full system failure; hardwire and software issues gone spastic! I was anxious and irritated. I could hardly stand to be in the same room with myself, to the point of arguing with myself. I have been tired and sluggish. I felt like I was going crazy, or driving myself there. At one point I looked at the kitchen faucet and immediately took out the cleaner and scrubby and went to town. OCD overload! Tuesday was a little better, felt like I was getting a handle on things again. Wednesday I noticed a few little itchy dots on one arm. Between Wednesday and Thursday my arms, neck and chest are covered with a bumpy itchy rash. Today I am still broke out but most of itching and redness is gone. I have a clean house! Was the rash environmental, internal, psychological……not 100% sure.
This week I have also been working on my mental diet. I figured that since I don’t sit glued to the TV or even regularly watch it, no problem for me. I go onto the computer, get on and get things done. I don’t sit and mindlessly wander. No news! No societal BS! I admit that my sense of going stir-crazy and lack of human interaction and the itching and arguing with myself compelled me to turn on the TV a couple of time. Although not sure if I happened upon these shows which then my mind connected with this adventure or if I my mind was looking for a connection and sought it out. One evening I turned on the TV just in time to see the last half of The Matrix. The next night I turned on the TV and my Netflix (thereby keeping away the outside BS). And a movie I had never seen caught my eye. As I sat there watching it I got literal goose bumps. The movie was about a family who are the last descendants of a woman tried in Salem. She was not a witch but they practiced an art of spirituality and nature. Some call magic. They reminded me of being in sync with nature. In the movie, The Matrix he wins by believing in his destiny and in himself, by seeing the matrix as equal to himself. The daughter in “The Last Leaders” she finds her true self by accepting who she truly is and becoming one with nature. At one point her mother tells her that she is not the healer but from within her, the healing comes from the love that emanates from her heart, from within her. Being one with The Universal. This morning I woke up and my mind is going crazy. I am thinking about MKMMA, childhood memories, wants and desires, nature, science; true headache material.
To Try and bring some of it together:
I have been fighting Universal Law!
Haanel writes “….the result of your thought is governed by an immutable law“; unchangeable, carved in stone for eternity, always has been and always will be, law.
“If it were not for law, the Universe would be a Chaos instead of a Cosmos“- Haanel
“It is the Law which makes the Universe one grand paean of Harmony.”- Haanel
“Always will I dig for reasons to applaud…when I am moved to praise I will shout from the roofs” – Mandino
“An Eclectic Mix of Galaxies”-NASA.gov
We also read from Haanel; “There is therefore but one law, one principle, one cause, one Source of Power, and good and evil are simply words which have been coined to indicate the result of our action, or our compliance or non-compliance with this law.”
Non-compliance with the law is evil, bad, and subject to chaos. However, compliance is subject to good, a cosmos of harmony.
This week during our sit Haanel asked us to again create a mental image. However, we were to follow that image “back to its origination”. Haanel gave us an example of a Battleship. A very large, very heavy vessel that without Laws would not exist. Laws of nature and Laws of gravity, Laws of supply and demand, Democratic and social laws; so many come into play when building something of this grandeur. It is a symbol of Defense, of Diplomacy, of Sacrifices, of Help and Gratitude, of Hope, of Truth, of Beauty, of Power, of Science, of Nature, of Universal Law…..
This week I broke apart and followed many things “back to its origination”. Everything we have! Everything we are! Everything we desire! All follow the same Laws that make a Battleship.
On my office floor were a bunch of family photos. I have been little by little going through them. Sorting them and choosing photos to make copies of. The object was to make a scrapbook for each of my children to give to them for Christmas. As I sat there this week I began to see myself and my origination. Photos of my youngest daughter who is still a child. Then a book filled with pictures of my older children who are now adults when they were growing up. My sons baby items. Photos of myself graduating from the University and graduating High School. My grade school pictures and photos of myself and my parents when I was a baby. I sat and looked at a picture of my grandfather at six months old sitting on my great grandmothers lap. I was always told I look just like her. I sat there and traced every feature with my eye. My origination. How did I get to where I am today? The roads I traveled the decisions I have made.
Everything is Good and Evil. Haanel even said, ” Here then, is the secret of the origin of both good and evil, this is all the good and evil there ever was or ever will be.
The Earth is dynamic. It is ever changing but never changes. Everything is made up from the same four basic elements; Earth, Air, Nature and Fire; Energy and Vibrations; carbon, oxygen……..just varying combinations. We have everything here we will ever get.
Not Good or Evil. >> A choice. The same piece of paper, the same pencil….the same elements to choose from……will it build a Battleship or a Cruise Ship; will it build a home or a prison; will it build a future of love and prosperity or will it build a world of hunger and sadness. There is good and evil in everything and everyone, it just depends on perspective and direction.
Perspective: Live by Love! Direction: Live by the Compass!
We are on a Seven Day Mental Diet. Clearing our minds and hearts of negative thoughts and gaining the ability to defend against taking negative in and allowing them to grow within us. In essence, helping us to use that simple piece of paper and pencil and build. The world today is filled with too much hunger and sadness, loss of hope, taking and not giving, lack of gratitude and thanks, of darkness instead of beauty, of bureaucracy instead of diplomacy.
My mind has been clearing more every day. The idea of the cement Buddha and the idea of the pieces and layers of cement coming off it has a new light now. At first I looked at this as exactly as it was stated layers and pieces falling off the outside. It is more like an onion. You reach into your onion bin and find one that is old and sofl, you see that little bit of green on the top and you know that if you don’t use it right away it will sprout. The outer layer has begun to dry up and perhaps is a bit brown or turning bad or mold on it. So you cut off the top. You begin to peal those outer layers off and find that what is underneath is still white and crisp. If you cut right in you will see the heart of a new green plant in the center, under all those layers; waiting to burst out and begin new again. If you had planted that dried up old onion a new plant may have grown.
The pieces of cement are layered on our hearts. Inside is a green and clean heart, ready to sprout with a new plant. We are cultivating the new soil and taking off the dried up moldy layers so the new plant can sprout and flourish.
You can not fight Universal Law!
Give Love Get Love! Give a Little Get a Little! Give Much Get much! Give all you can Get all you can!